http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/L'habit ne fait pas le moineen-EUMokoFeed10http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/fc/fe5856d6ea1568c9ddc0c48a5a0815_160x200.jpghttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/27/life_s_too_short~3359505/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-11-27:/2007/11/27/life_s_too_short~3359505/Tue, 27 Nov 2007 14:36:55 +0100 <p>Comment from: wildliferescue:</p> <blockquote><p>Still, think of the fun she'll have until then! Life's too short to spend it worrying about the future! </p></blockquote> <p>Yes, and then think of the stress she'll be under when she actually realises that she's heavily in debt, will have to sell her flat (for no doubt zero profit, or probably even debt including selling fees!), no more nice holidays, back to house sharing in a tiny room... And no doubt it'll be ME that picks up the pieces!</p> <p>Life IS too short to spend it worrying about the future, but you can have fun AND plan for the future at the same time!! It's called finding a balance. </p> <p>What's the point in having a wild time now if it means living in poverty on a state pension when I reach 65? My gran lives on a state pension after loosing everything when she was younger. She lives in a grotty old people's home, after finally being moved out her grotty council flat, and gets about £10 a week spending money, which is all that's left over from her pension after paying for the tiny dingy room in the old folks place. I think I'd rather be dead than live like that!!</p> <p>Oh well, I suppose she's still got her mummy and daddy to bail her out when she runs out of cash... A rare luxury for people in their mid-20s, but they've been doing it all her life, so it's not surprising she has no concept of budgeting! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/27/life_s_too_short~3359505/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/27/life_s_too_short~3359505/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/26/naive_friend~3354698/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-11-26:/2007/11/26/naive_friend~3354698/Mon, 26 Nov 2007 15:05:28 +0100 <p>Why are some people so irresponsible with money?</p> <p>About 4 months ago, my friend bought a new build 1 bed flat in London with an interest only mortgage.</p> <p>She earns around £40k, and the flat must've cost around £250k with just a 5% deposit (so borrowing over 6 times her salary...)</p> <p>As far as I know, she doesn't get big city bonuses, so I have no idea how she intends to pay off the equity. </p> <p>And yet she runs a car, has just spent £800 on a ski holiday next February, went to Greece for a week in the summer, also went to Dubai (boyfriend paid, but she spent ALOT of money), splashed out god knows how much on furniture, and every weekend goes out drinking in expensive bars, eating out in posh restaurants, and then clubbing in "celebrity" style venues!!</p> <p>Hmm, I have a hunch this could end in disaster, especially if prices of new build mass produced flats drop. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/26/naive_friend~3354698/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/26/naive_friend~3354698/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/16/the_pain_of_boredom~3305449/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-11-16:/2007/11/16/the_pain_of_boredom~3305449/Fri, 16 Nov 2007 12:24:36 +0100 <p>Well, so far today, I've spent 30 minutes discussing labels stuck on boxes in the lab, then an hour re-labelling the boxes that were insufficiently labelled. Another 30 mins was spent discussing ridiculous over-the-top guarding on certain machines, and how it's become more of a safety issue than when there was no guarding (risk of splitting open knuckles on guarding edges whilst operating levers!). I'm all for health and safety, but it's become such a joke recently!!</p> <p>I'm now sitting at my desk, suffering from boredom. I have 10 GSCEs at grade A, 5 A Levels, and a Masters degree from one of the top UK universities, and here I am spending my days sticking labels on boxes, and typing dull spreadsheets. I've even taught myself how to use all the mathematical formula in Excel, should i ever have to use it... (i doubt it). And I get paid a whole £25k p.a to do this job!! </p> <p>I know, I should be grateful, as so many people would kill to earn £25k a year and do nothing, but I hate it! Being bored is the worst thing ever. I feel as though my brain is rotting away, and I'm loosing all confidence in my ability and skills. </p> <p>My collegue gets a good project. It used to be my project until I was made to go and do 6 months working in another department. He knows it was ME who started the project, and yet he rarely delegates me any work, despite be giving constant offers of help, and asking how it's progressing. My eyes are also on the design work, which is mine... and I shall be rather annoyed if a patent is filed under HIS name...</p> <p>I am SO bored it makes me want to cry. And even if I do get find another job, I still have to give 3 months notice here... and I don't have any holiday left this year to have days off for interviews, so can't really start applying until next year. OMG, I'm stuck in boredom limbo until probably about May! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeek.</p> <p>At least MBF is in today, although I'm really starting to dislike him. He has no manners and seems to think he's too great to have to thank me for doing anything. Arsehole! Sometimes he makes strange chicken noises. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/16/the_pain_of_boredom~3305449/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/16/the_pain_of_boredom~3305449/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/12/not_fat_but_boring~3285350/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-11-12:/2007/11/12/not_fat_but_boring~3285350/Mon, 12 Nov 2007 17:06:01 +0100 <p>Had a bit of an arguement with boyfriend at the weekend.</p> <p>I was talking to a couple of people at a party, and this one girl kept looking over my shoulder as if she would rather go talk to someone else. A bit rude, considering we'd only just been introduced. It's not like SHE was making any effort to make conversation.</p> <p>Later, my boyfriend told me it was probably because I'm boring.</p> <p>Well, it could be true. Maybe i AM boring?! </p> <p>The problem is that I don't have many friends. I used to have LOTS of friends, but I've always got on SO much better with guys than girls.</p> <p>Girls bitch about everyone and everything, but say things they'd never dream of saying to someone's face. They also seem to dislike me because I'm tall and thin, with big boobs, small waist, and some hips. If I'm not eating, they like to assume I'm anorexic. If I do eat, I feel like I'm being watched, and perhaps they think I'm bulimic, and nip of to the toilets to puke!? </p> <p>Shopping with any female who has a weight issue is a nightmare, and let's face it, ALOT of girls have weight issues. </p> <p>Blokes just accept you at face value. You can be honest with them, and they don't take offence.</p> <p>Problem is, my boyfriend doesn't like me having male friends. He'll have a major strop and sulk if I go out for a drink with a male friend, hence in the last year or so, I've ditched them all. </p> <p>It doesn't even matter that I don't fancy my male friends in the slightest. He just presumes they're all going to hit on me! Jeez, i'm a big girl, and if they did try it on, they'd get a slap!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/12/not_fat_but_boring~3285350/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/12/not_fat_but_boring~3285350/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/07/i_hate_rude_people~3258355/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-11-07:/2007/11/07/i_hate_rude_people~3258355/Wed, 07 Nov 2007 10:26:30 +0100 <p>I hate people who lack manners.</p> <p>I may be blunt sometimes, but when someone does something for me, especially if they didn't have to, then I thank them.</p> <p>MBF is rude. Or maybe just arrogant, so thinks people should just run around after him because he's superior and should never have to thank people.</p> <p>He was yacking away to someone at his desk one day last week, and his phone was ringing and ringing, so I answered it because he blatently wasn't going to do it. It was one of the secretaries wanting to know details so she could book some flights for him, so I took a message, and trecked all the way over the other side of the office to give him the post-it note. Did he say thank you? NO! Did he say thank you later on when he had ample opportunity? NO! </p> <p>I then get an email yesterday asking if I could submit some report for him, which I did promptly, apologising that it was late. 22 hours later and he hasn't even bothered to reply to say thank you. Maybe he hasn't got much internet access wherever he's working this week, but I doubt it! He's just an arrogant jerk. </p> <p>Gawd I'm in a bad mood this morning! My appointment at the breast clinic is fast approaching, and I'm dreading it. I know it's probably only a cyst, but the lump has been there for months, and I dread it could be more than a cyst. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/07/i_hate_rude_people~3258355/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/07/i_hate_rude_people~3258355/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/05/i_see_dead_people~3248798/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-11-05:/2007/11/05/i_see_dead_people~3248798/Mon, 05 Nov 2007 14:16:39 +0100 <p>Ohhh MBF is in the office today, wearing jeans!! I always wondered what he'd wear if it wasn't a suit! He's still wearing a shirt though (and from my observations, he only seems to own 4!), tucked into the pale-ish blue jeans, with a brown leather belt. It makes him look skinny! Actually, he IS skinny! Skinny but cute!</p> <p>I spoke too soon! He's now just left the office and is working abroad this week, hence the jeans for travelling. sigh. Oh well, sadly his 1 hour appearance in the office has just made my day! It seems the more you earn here, the less hours you have to work.</p> <p>I kept thinking about dead people last night though. Someone I cared about died of cancer a couple of weeks after his 22nd birthday several years ago. It snowed that christmas, and I remember thinking that it would be the last time he ever saw snow. Not that he cared, because at that point he'd had his eye sewn closed due to the tumour behind it. I'm not religious in the slightest, but I often wonder if dead people can see and hear everything. I always get the impression that I'm being watched... I've done some horrible things in my life, even though I always promise myself I'll never do anything horrible ever again, and I can't help feeling he's watching me sometimes, laughing at my f*ck-ups. </p> <p>I think I'm frightened of death. Not my own death, but other people dying. My gran will probably die soon-ish (well, maybe another year or two), but it freaks me out that perhaps all these people are watching me after they die, reading my thoughts and judging me. Strange, but it actually bothers me more about what dead people think of me than living people! </p> <p>The guy who died of cancer, well I used to wish that it was me who had cancer and died instead of him. He was funny, very intelligent, tall, cute, and one of the most likable people I've ever known. We kissed once. We probably shouldn't have. He couldn't find his brother (possibly passed out drunk in his room with door locked), so we were sat on my bed, backs to the wall, talking about life. He had a hole in the left knee of his jeans, and I was stroking his knee. Tipsy but not drunk. I remember half of me thinking "we shouldn't be doing this", and the other half thinking "this feels right". We decided not to mention it again. He had everything to live for, and didn't deserve to die. I often wonder what he'd be doing now. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/05/i_see_dead_people~3248798/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/05/i_see_dead_people~3248798/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/02/lousy_friends~3234394/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-11-02:/2007/11/02/lousy_friends~3234394/Fri, 02 Nov 2007 12:12:03 +0100 <p>I think my best friends are lousy, and I'm tired of always being there for them, and yet feel like I'm not getting much in return. </p> <p>It's always me that has to travel to London; they haven't come to visit me for a couple of years! I feel like I get frowned upon when I can't make it to London for some event because I already have plans. There's a housewarming party tonight, and I already have guests staying, so can't go (it was originally going to be tomorrow night, when I could have gone), and it's like I'm being made to feel bad because I won't change all my plans to fit in with them.</p> <p> I give them advice on their problems when they ask for it, which often goes un-thanked (I spent AGES typing out a kind email offering support for friend A who is having a boyfriend problem, and not a thank you or even a response - but yes, she did get it - I asked to check - still no thanks), and yet when I've been concerned about something (the breast lump, the new person in office who stole my work and likes trampling on people to climb the career ladder!) the reply-all email comes back just replying to things the two of them have written, completely overlooking my questions and thoughts! I ALWAYS make sure I offer support when one of them needs it!</p> <p>I'm feeling like a doormat again. Give give give, and not so much in return. </p> <p>It's not easy to make new friends when you're in your late 20s! I would love to volunteer, spend time helping people/kids, but can't find anything advertised locally. </p> <p>At least my boyfriend is adorable! He hasn't had any man moods for AGES, which is wonderful!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/02/lousy_friends~3234394/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/02/lousy_friends~3234394/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/01/title~3229939/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-11-01:/2007/11/01/title~3229939/Thu, 01 Nov 2007 16:01:33 +0100 <p>Considering that the UK is such a small island, why do we have such crap and overpriced public transport?!?!</p> <p>Most return train fares are far more than it would cost a lone person to make the same journey in a car, including the cost of parking, so why on earth would I want to sit (stand?!) for hours on public transport, listening to other people's music, and smelling other people's BO or overpowering perfume?!? </p> <p>You can usually forget the advantage of being able to read the paper, as normally there isn't enough elbow room to read a book, or get a tissue out your pocket.</p> <p>I say privatise it again, and make sure all journeys are the equivalent in cost per mile as petrol for an economical car!!</p> <p>The simple way to sort this out would have been to have a "Midlands" olympics rather than having it in London, which is the only city where you can happily live without a car in most areas! </p> <p>Stadiums could have been build in cities such as Birmingham, Leeds, Bradford, Lincoln, Oxford, Norwich, Nottingham etc... and an amazing public transport network could have been built between all cities, so not only would it sort our lousy public transport out, it would have boosted UK cities other than London!</p> <p>No MBF this week. sigh. Although I haven't missed him at all!</p> <p>I've also worked out who bull-shit boy reminds me of! That one from Little Britain, who always goes on about being Molly Sugdon's bridesmaid!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/01/title~3229939/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/11/01/title~3229939/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/31/spouting_hot_air~3225063/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-10-31:/2007/10/31/spouting_hot_air~3225063/Wed, 31 Oct 2007 17:06:08 +0100 <p>Hotair man is back in the office today! I've never met someone who over-exagerates stories so much!</p> <p>At first they sound believable, and then eventually they cross over the believable line into "oh my goodness, do you think i'm a moron" territory.</p> <p>All of these stories have happened to "friends" of his:</p> <p>1) Like the pregnant friend who was 4 weeks overdue, and her waters had already broken 2 weeks before, so she took to mountainbiking up great big hills to try and hurry up the labour! Hmmm, I've not had kids yet, but I do know that when the waters break, you have to be exceedingly careful as the baby becomes highly prone to infection. Oh, and when you become 2 weeks overdue, don't they normally induce the labour??</p> <p>2)He has a friend who was a vegan eco-warrior swampy type person, who lived up a tree miles from any civilisation. He fell 60ft out his tree, had to have both legs amputated, and ended up having to go stay with his parents when he got out of hospital, who served him steak, eggs and cheesy chips and he instantly gave up being a vegan.(How he got help when he had no mobile phone and no people for miles around I do not know...)</p> <p>3) Then there's the friend who was out running, and discovered a man lying face down in a lake in the middle of no where. He pulled him out the lake, revived him, but in the process broke his sternum, and the guy (whose life he saved) then sued him!</p> <p>I may be blonde, but I'm not stupid, and 90% of his stories have a severe amount of impossibility. It's like he seems to think that everyone believes him, and that we're ALL stupid.</p> <p>I suppose if it makes him feel wanted and good about himself, I shall humour him, but he just makes himself look like a doofus! Or maybe he really does think I'm stupid and believe every word that comes out his mouth? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/31/spouting_hot_air~3225063/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/31/spouting_hot_air~3225063/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/30/criminals_walk_free_in_uk~3217561/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-10-30:/2007/10/30/criminals_walk_free_in_uk~3217561/Tue, 30 Oct 2007 10:30:22 +0100 <p>A guy I know was beaten up recently. He’d just been out for a pint with a mate, bought himself a kebab, and was walking home when something hit him on the back of the head. He spun round just to catch a glimpse of 2 guys with a baseball bat, but was knocked unconscious very quickly, and woke up in hospital. </p> <p>Apparently the attack continued for 20 minutes, until a passer by witnessed it and called the police. A police dog unit in the area managed to pick up the scent, and the attackers, aged 17 and 20, were caught red handed, trying to wash the blood off their hands, clothes and baseball bat. </p> <p>Those who saw the victim after the attack can only describe him as unrecognisable. He suffered memory loss, and when they finally let him out of hospital after many stitches and an operation, he suffered a seizure, so has now been told he can’t drive for 6 months. </p> <p>At least the scum that did this had been caught, and hopefully trialled for attempted murder (a 20 minute attack??? If they weren’t trying to kill him, then I don’t know WHAT else they could have possibly been doing), but thanks to Blair/Brown and their appalling attitude towards prosecuting “criminals”, these 2 thugs have been released back onto the streets, and it’s unlikely that they’ll get more than a few hours community service or suspended sentence. </p> <p>Does someone actually have to KILL someone before being put in prison nowadays?? The thugs claimed the victim had launched a drunken attack on them, so they were acting in self defence, but his alcohol level (testing in hospital) was exceedingly low, and any character reference will say that he’s one of the most placid, friendly and happy guys one can meet!</p> <p>We have 11,000 foreigners in our UK prisons, and personally I think Brown should make their deportation a priority, and all 11,000 to be sent back in disgrace to their country of origin by the end of 2008, and banned from ever returning to the UK. At least that way, we’d have space to lock up our own scum who make life a misery for others.</p> <p>Sometimes I really hate this country, and wonder what the future holds for it... at the moment it is bleak, and I look forward to leaving it! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/30/criminals_walk_free_in_uk~3217561/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/30/criminals_walk_free_in_uk~3217561/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/29/the_lump~3213262/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-10-29:/2007/10/29/the_lump~3213262/Mon, 29 Oct 2007 14:41:51 +0100 <p>Today I'm sleepy!</p> <p>I had a dream about MBF last night. It started well, we were snuggling up on this beanbag at some sort of party, he was stroking my hair, gazing at me in an adoring way... but by the end of the dream, I looked at him and thought "ew, I really don't fancy him"... And then I woke up!</p> <p>I have lots of rather vivid dreams actually. The other week, I was so sure that while I was asleep, my boyfriend decided to climb on top of me and play with my boobs (he goes to bed much later than me!). I felt agitated, because I was trying to sleep, and he was prodding and poking, rather than gently fondling. I remember sleepily mumbling at him to stop it and trying to push him off! </p> <p>In the morning I was SO grouchy with him, but the poor boy had no idea what I was talking about!! I questioned him over and over again, giving him ample opportunity to own up, but he swears blind that he watched Match of the Day in bed then went to sleep, and certainly did not prod me!!</p> <p>I must've dreamt the whole thing!!!</p> <p>Actually, I have a lump... b/f nagged at me for months to get it looked at, and my doc referred me to a breast clinic. I was surprised how quickly the appointment came through (1 month! - I thought you had to wait ages!), and am obviously more worried about it than I thought. </p> <p>Anyone else been to a hospital to have a lump checked out?!?! Are they gonna prod me?! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/29/the_lump~3213262/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/29/the_lump~3213262/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/26/muslim_prisoners~3198148/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-10-26:/2007/10/26/muslim_prisoners~3198148/Fri, 26 Oct 2007 12:47:28 +0200 <p>I just read about some Muslim prisoners who are suing because they had a choice of ham sandwiches on their prison menu!!</p> <p>This really makes my blood boil.</p> <p>I can't believe we live in a country where they spend more money on our prisoners than our elderly population! </p> <p>Personally, I think anyone who has committed a crime should loose all their rights.</p> <p>If I ran the prisons, these would be my rules:</p> <p>1)Prisoners get basic diet of carbohydrate, vegetables and cheese. Meat is a luxury item served once a year.</p> <p>2) Prisoners have no possessions, and have to earn items such as a pillow, a radio, chocolate etc... with good behaviour.</p> <p>3) No TVs, no games room, no luxury items! Prisoners will spend at least 8 hours a day reading, studying, exercising, or attending councelling. </p> <p>4) No extra demands for religion. If you're genuinely a christian/muslim/jew or whatever, you wouldn't have committed the crime in the first place!</p> <p>Gawd I hate this country sometimes. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/26/muslim_prisoners~3198148/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/26/muslim_prisoners~3198148/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/25/sabotage~3193169/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-10-25:/2007/10/25/sabotage~3193169/Thu, 25 Oct 2007 13:59:09 +0200 <p>He's wearing the red-ish shirt today. No pattern emerging, but very soon I will know his entire collection of shirts in his wardrobe! <img src="/img/smilies/icon_neutral.gif" alt=":|" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>I'm insanely bored at work. I'm an intelligent person, and yet not being the slightest bit mentally stretched at the moment! What a waste of a brain!! But they're still paying me!</p> <p>I started an awesome project 2 years ago, but after having to go and do an 8 month stint in another 2 departments, the project got given to someone else in my absence, and on my return I have been lumbered with the insanely dull work all bar the odd design problem, while other guy gets my awesome project, which I started oh so long ago! I ask to help (pleeaaaase let me do some work!), but alas he doesn't want to share! He tells me to put aside 8 hours this week to help with some injection moulding, but has since decided to do it all himself. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_yawn.gif" alt=":yawn:" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>We get appraisals every year, but across the whole team, the average will be 3. They claim the score is not based on our bonus, but it is!! (The general rule of thumb is our bonus is multiplied by our appraisal score). So basically, if I want a good bonus and thus require a good appraisal score, I have to make sure my collegues do badly i.e. for me to get a 5, someone else would have to get a 1. </p> <p>Does this mean I should sabotage my collegues project??? Make him look incompetant?! </p> <p>And there was me thinking that this company thrives on teamwork!</p> <p>Obviously, my collegue who is project manager to the project that I invented/initiated, will get a better score than me, because he actually has an important project that is drawing alot of attention. I, on the other hand, require a miracle to get any notice with the crappy projects I have!</p> <p>I know I'm a bitch, but I'm not THAT much of a bitch, so I won't be sabotaging his project, but it does prove the fatal flaw in our appraisal system!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/25/sabotage~3193169/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/25/sabotage~3193169/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/23/no_more_grumpy_friend~3183039/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-10-23:/2007/10/23/no_more_grumpy_friend~3183039/Tue, 23 Oct 2007 16:21:38 +0200 <p>The sulking has stopped! She's had a row with her boyfriend and realised she needs us!!</p> <p>This time, judging by her email, it sounds serious. </p> <p>After 8 years together (occasionally off, but mostly on), you'd think that he'd be committed to her, but nope! He gives her no more commitment than he did after they'd been dating for just 3 months!! </p> <p>He'll go an entire week without emailing or phoning her, then when he wants something (sex usually), he'll just phone and behave like nothing happens.</p> <p>Mr Insensitive + Miss Over-sensitive </p> <p>Not a great combination huh?</p> <p>Anyway, despite him treating her like crap, and her spending alot of time crying and generally upset, he just goes and buys her an expensive gift, or dinner at a swanky restaurant, and all is forgiven.</p> <p>It's like he just flashes the cash and it erases all negative thoughts from her brain. </p> <p>What is wrong with this girl?!?! </p> <p>I try to be supportive, but it still shocks me how much crap she puts up with. If I were her, I would have left him a LONG time ago!! She seems to be in love with the idea that one day, she and him will live together, get married, and will live happily ever after... Hmmmm, I'm not so sure. </p> <p>I don't think he has a switch to change between insensitive and tactful! </p> <p>She's so pretty, kind, intelligent, ambitious, she'd make most guys a lovely parnter (minus the spoilt bit and the sulking, which is more than the normal woman level, but is made up for by other qualities!). I just don't know why she stays with him.</p> <p>PS - BFG is wearing a pink shirt, so I guess I was wrong about him wearing his shirts on a rota! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/23/no_more_grumpy_friend~3183039/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/23/no_more_grumpy_friend~3183039/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/22/having_a_crap_day~3176997/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-10-22:/2007/10/22/having_a_crap_day~3176997/Mon, 22 Oct 2007 14:38:04 +0200 <p>I think she’s still in a strop. She sent a somewhat sarcastic email last week gloating that she’d invited someone else for lunch this weekend (i.e. a friend of mine, and I wasn’t invited). If it was her that was ill, (OMG, how many times has she cancelled on us due to her getting cystitis!?!?!) I would have been more concerned that she was feeling OK, rather than wallowing in self pity due to the boys ditching her house warming party for the rubgy. I guess some people are more self-centred than others. </p> <p>Can you tell I’m feeling crap today?!?</p> <p>I guess I had a somewhat unwelcome blast from the past on Friday. Logged onto facebook to reply to a message a friend had sent me, and noticed another message on her wall written from a girl who used to be my best friend, but was actually nothing but a bully who seemed to get her kicks out of making other people feel miserable.</p> <p>Yup, I suffered from very low self esteem as a teenager, and no thanks to her! At 14 I was 5’9”, and a UK size 6, but with curves!! It never occurred to me she was jealous, and yet every time we went shopping, she’d tell me it looked crap (fitted clothes), or I looked like a freak (platform shoes). No wonder in every photo I’m wearing clothes that are big enough to be a tent!! I remember being to ashamed to go to a school disco as she’d implied that the boys wouldn’t want to slow dance and snog me at the end coz I was too tall. I did try not to be friends with her on a couple of occasions, but she told everyone I’d been a bitch to her, so I’d end up with no one speaking to me! It wasn’t until recently I found out that people didn’t actually like her, but were just friends with her because they were afraid of her sulking!!</p> <p>Oh yeah, BOY could she sulk. I remember her trying on this hideous brown velour catsuit thing, which just looked wrong on a 5ft person with large arse, boobs and sticky out stomach. I believe it’s kind to tell your friends when something doesn’t suit them, so I did. And she sulked. All day long to be precise. And she still bought it, and wore it to a party, where everyone was quietly taking the piss out of her. One of those people taking the piss was this weird guy who she ended up marrying!! Ha ha ha! I wonder if she knows what he used to say about her?!</p> <p>Anyway, when I went to uni, I met nice people who liked me for who I was, and didn’t make me feel ugly, so I told her where to go. Best decision ever, and now I relish being nearly 6ft tall and size 10!! </p> <p>This facebook thing is bugging me. People have asked me how she’s getting on before she joined, and I told them honestly that I haven’t spoken to her for 10 years. (hence I found out they didn’t like her either). But now she’s been added as a “friend” to all these people, and it’s freaked me out. If I don’t add her, people will notice, if I do, then I don’t think I want to, or she’ll click decline. ARG! Why am I so stressed over this?!? I swore I’d never let her dent my confidence ever again. </p> <p>My laptop died yesterday. Power went dead. Am hoping it’s just a loose connection, although something tells me I’ll be saving up £500 for a new one.</p> <p>My hairdryer died on Saturday. </p> <p>I am keeping a log of MBF and what shirts he wears, just to see if he wears the same ones in a cycle!</p> <p>Mon: ??<br> Tue: Red-ish colour, with thick red stripes<br> Wed: Plain white<br> Thu: ohps, how could I forget to look?!?!<br> Fri: pale blue denim shirt</p> <p>Mon: white with think pale blue stripes.</p> <p>Wonder if he’ll wear the thick red striped one tomorrow?!?!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/22/having_a_crap_day~3176997/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/22/having_a_crap_day~3176997/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/19/house_price_crash~3161844/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-10-19:/2007/10/19/house_price_crash~3161844/Fri, 19 Oct 2007 14:55:49 +0200 <p>Just been reading all this stuff about a potential house price crash, and can’t believe the amount of naïve people who seem to think that the market will become flooded with bargain houses!</p> <p>Last time the market crashed, the interest rates were sky high, so obviously lots of people had their homes repossessed, but given that rates aren’t set to rocket again, then this time any crash will have different circumstances.</p> <p>Let’s go for a hypothetical 40% price drop; this would leave many people with negative equity, so they would either stay put, or if they HAD to move, they’d just rent their house out, or buy another property before selling theirs. This would lead to a shortage of houses for sale (not good – as we already have a shortage due to people living longer, immigration, split families requiring 2 homes etc…), which would then make prices rise again due demand to buy being far higher than availability.</p> <p>Ok, so some people have borrowed ridiculously against their salaries, but so long as they can keep paying their mortgage and not default, then they won’t be repossessed. </p> <p>Personally, I don’t think this crash is going to happen. House prices may stand still for a few months, or rise much more slowly, but a lot of it is wishful thinking from those who can’t afford to get onto the ladder. </p> <p>If prices do crash, then I think there’s going to be rather a lot of disappointed people who were expecting to snap up a bargain and get their foot on the ladder!</p> <p><em>MBF has been in the office all day today! If I go chat to our secretary, I can get a much closer look at him! </em> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/19/house_price_crash~3161844/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/19/house_price_crash~3161844/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/18/still_sulking~3155894/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-10-18:/2007/10/18/still_sulking~3155894/Thu, 18 Oct 2007 14:01:10 +0200 <p>I think she's still sulking.</p> <p>I'll give her time. More time. I'm afraid as much as I love her to bits, she was rather spoilt in her upbringing, so has tendancies to sulk if she doesn't get her own way.</p> <p>Given that she'd already made so many excuses trying to put me off coming, I don't know what the big deal was with me being ill!?</p> <p>Actually, I have a hunch it's nothing to do with the party. It's her boyfriend of 8 years still being less committed a boyfriend of 6 months! Personally, I think he's lousy! He'll often go an entire week without even bothering to call her, despite living in the same city, and when out in company, he'll often say something insulting to her and she'll end up in tears!</p> <p>Mr Insensitive and Miss Over-sensitive aren't exactly an ideal combination!</p> <p>He earns alot of money, but when it comes to presents, rather than putting thought and effort into it, he'll just nip into a jewelry shop an hour before meeting her, buy the first (expensive) thing he sees in the window, quickly buys a card (which he fills out in the toilets of the pub!), then hands them over to her. Unwrapped of course.</p> <p>Sadly, she is dazzled by expensive things, so all is forgiven and forgiven...</p> <p>I despair sometimes. </p> <p>Today I ended up in the coffee room cupboard with MBF!! We had a lovely conversation about car maintenance, and I didn't go bright red for once. I shall try and time my coffee breaks more skillfully in future <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/18/still_sulking~3155894/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/18/still_sulking~3155894/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/16/stroppy_women~3145456/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-10-16:/2007/10/16/stroppy_women~3145456/Tue, 16 Oct 2007 15:44:45 +0200 <p>My best friend is having a strop. Again. </p> <p>Ok, I understand she’s pissed off, as she’d planned her party at her new house on Saturday, but low and behold, England get themselves in the rugby cup final, and the boys decide not only that they want to watch it, but they have to watch it in a pub miles from her house, thus cancelling on her, but that’s no reason to take it out on the 2 of us that stuck by her!!</p> <p>Having told me her house is hard to get to by public transport so she’d pick me up, she then changes her mind saying she can’t pick me up, so can I drive there (nope – alcohol and driving don’t mix!), and the makes excuse about her parents visiting so can’t pick me up at all so I’ll have to find a bus, and can only come between 3 and 5pm! I get the impression that me visiting is an inconvenience to her… </p> <p>Anyway, Saturday comes, and I’m really quite ill, so can’t come anyway. I feel really bad, so send an apologetic text, which she doesn’t reply to, and now she seems to be having a 1st class strop, and not emailing! I’ve apologised again via email, but still nothing. Sigh. I did get a birthday email saying “yes, happy birthday” replying to someone else’s (chirpy meaningful) happy birthday email, but could tell it was nothing but a sarcastic cold sulky response, as she’s not normally like that. </p> <p>Sigh. Why do women have strops and take it out on their friends who have done nothing wrong? What hurt the most is she actually defended the boys decision to go to this particular pub for the rugby, then made ME out to feel bad for not cancelling my plans with her! And then made me feel shit on my birthday with her sulky email.</p> <p>I give up with friends. I feel like I spend so much time helping people out and being nice, but get very little in return. </p> <p>I almost got to sit next to MBF the other day… but alas someone else plonked themselves down next to me, so he had to sit next to them. he left a seat in-between though. </p> <p>Feeling down about my mate being such a sulky ME ME ME person. I’ve done nothing wrong yet am being made to feel guilty.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/16/stroppy_women~3145456/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/16/stroppy_women~3145456/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/12/new_girl_on_the_scene~3124110/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-10-12:/2007/10/12/new_girl_on_the_scene~3124110/Fri, 12 Oct 2007 11:36:16 +0200 <p>Although it gets a bit lonely being the only girl in an office of 25, I kinda got used to it and started to like it that way. I fit in better with blokes. They "get me" and I can be honest with them, without fear that they're gonna sulk for hours if you say something they don't like! Nor do I have to worry about being judged by other girls, or being looked down on because of my "blokey" attitude.</p> <p>The other day I found out another girl would be moving into the office to fill the marketing position, and sitting right near me. I was pretty happy to think I'd have another girl to gossip with, drink coffee with, and natter to. YAY! </p> <p>I stupidly presumed it would be someone from outside the company, but alas it's not. I have nothing against this girl, apart from the time she passed my hard work off as her own, and the time she made me present her work, even though it had mistakes in and I didn't agree with the conclusions she'd drawn. I HATE being made to feel like a muppet! She's a bit patronising too, and rather on the arse licking side - the type that would trample over others to look good. </p> <p>I'm not jealous. I would hate to be like that. But I know it's gonna change the atmosphere in here. </p> <p>MBF will no doubt like her. Probably more than he likes me. Actually, he rarely talks to me, so 'like' is a bit of wishful thinking. I still can't stop myself staring when he walks into the room, and feeling all butterfly-like inside. If I tell you he looks a bit like the detective guy in Prison Break (Alex Mahone - played by William Fichter - phwaaaaaaaaaaaaar), you're gonna google him and think EWWWW! Yes, my friends frequently tell me I have terrible taste in men.</p> <p><img src="http://l.yimg.com/img.tv.yahoo.com/tv/us/img/site/90/76/0000009076_20060920160450.jpg" alt="" title=""></p> <p>yes, that's William Fichtner. Hot huh?!?!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/12/new_girl_on_the_scene~3124110/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/10/12/new_girl_on_the_scene~3124110/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/25/wanna_be_his_muse~3036402/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-09-25:/2007/09/25/wanna_be_his_muse~3036402/Tue, 25 Sep 2007 11:40:54 +0200 <p>When I was young, I used to dream that someone would fall utterly in love with me, and I would become the reason that they breathe. They would spend the day thinking of me, and look forward to coming home every evening just to see me. They would come in, and their eyes would light up at the sight of me. </p> <p>What utter bollocks said my other half. </p> <p>After 3 years, i know he loves me, but i was thinking I should be his muse, rather than just someone who's in the house when he comes home from work, occasionally phoning me to let me know he's going to be even later than normal. Sigh. I asked him if I'm the reason he breathes, and he said no. I asked if I'm his best friend and soul mate, and he said no. He said that only happens in films so I've been watching too many girly soppy films!</p> <p>Is there no guy out there that feels this way about his girl?!?! I feel like such a fool, thinking about him all day at work, then waiting in excitement for him to come home. Every evening is just one big anticipation, then an anticlimax when he really doesn't seem that bothered to see me. </p> <p>I love the guy to bits, but it seems that I'm always going to love him more than he's going to love me. I have a problem with that, unless I really am being a fool, and that a muse-style relationship really only exists in fairy tails!?</p> <p>spent all day in the same room as MBF yesterday, and even got to sit opposite him. I call it fate, as there was no way to know that it was HIS notebook that was placed in the chair opposite. FATE! He even spoke to me, and joked with me, and maybe even flirted!!</p> <p>I suppose my obsession with MBF makes up for the lack of muse-like attention my OH gives me! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/25/wanna_be_his_muse~3036402/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/25/wanna_be_his_muse~3036402/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/18/taste_in_men~2999110/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-09-18:/2007/09/18/taste_in_men~2999110/Tue, 18 Sep 2007 11:53:43 +0200 <p>I'm beginning to realise I have strange taste in men, and I always end up having crushes on the most bizarre men which often surprises me!</p> <p>These men must have something in common, as physically none of them look particularly alike. </p> <p>SO, this is what I go for in a man:</p> <p>1) Passionate about their career. We spend a whole 40+ hours at work each week, so you might as well try and do something you love. Men who whinge about their job are such a turn off! If you don't like it, change it! Ambition is a big turn on!</p> <p>2) A brain. I love intellectual people. They don't have to be complete brainiacs, but they need to be interested in life around them, how things work. There are 2 sorts of people in this world; those that ask questions, and those that don't. I like those who do! People who are intregued by things, that don't just take things at face value.</p> <p>3) Opinionated. I HATE people who just agree all the time. No two people can have the same beliefs, so if you have a view point, don't be ashamed of it, just state it, and stand up for yourself! It's ok to agree to disagree!</p> <p>4) Charismatic. Quirky people. Can't explain this one, but I'm attracted to people who stand out from the norm.</p> <p>5) Looks. I don't really care about looks. There has to be SOME physical attraction, but the most important thing is that a person is confident and comfortable with the way they look. </p> <p>6) Self control. I admit it - I'm size-ist! Fat people are such a turn off. YUCK! I just look at fat people and see a complete lack of self control and respect. Your body is your temple - respect it! I'm not saying eat nothing but organic crap, just don't abuse it. Very few people are genetically fat. Most fat people are fat because they're greedy and have very little self control. Am not keen on overly muscular guys though - have found them to be a little too image obsessed, almost bordering on insecure!</p> <p>7) Money. I really don't care about it! I'd much rather date a guy who works really hard at his career and earns bugger all, than a rich guy who sits on his arse all day and watches the pennies roll in. Any rich guy can walk in a jewelery shop and buy a girl a pearl necklace, but most girls would much prefer a present that has taken time, effort and thought - even if it cost nothing! The most romantic present I ever got was a clay modelled<br> pencil sharpner, in the form of turkish delight, with a big bite in the side. It must've taken the guy HOURS to make, despite only costing £3 in materials! </p> <p>Ok, that's it! Anyone disagree/agree? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/18/taste_in_men~2999110/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/18/taste_in_men~2999110/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/17/the_power_of_media~2993318/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-09-17:/2007/09/17/the_power_of_media~2993318/Mon, 17 Sep 2007 13:11:43 +0200 <p>After reading numerous different online papers, I'm amazed at how much panic the media has created over this Northern Rock thing!</p> <p>So, after all this mayhem in the USA, Northern Rock have the sense to take out an overdraft facility just to cover their backsides in the case of an emergency, but somehow the papers and media got hold of this insignificant story, and stick this on front pages and headlines, and now we have customers withdrawing £Billions over.... NOTHING! </p> <p>Ironically, if we were to have an economic crisis in the UK, then with Northern Rock having the overdraft facility, they'd probably be the only bank to survive.</p> <p>Do only muppets bank with NR or something?!?! </p> <p>I guess the overdraft thing is a bit like an airbag in a car; it's there incase you have a crash, but in reality you'll probably never use or need it - BUT IT'S REASSURING TO KNOW IT'S THERE, and could save your life!</p> <p>It is rather odd that so many people choose to believe the Daily Mail over a reputable financial advisor. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/17/the_power_of_media~2993318/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/17/the_power_of_media~2993318/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/11/new_doo~2960421/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-09-11:/2007/09/11/new_doo~2960421/Tue, 11 Sep 2007 09:10:06 +0200 <p>I hate going to the hairdresser! They make you cough up a whole £35 for what takes them 45 mins!! It had been a whole 8 months since my last visit, so I thought I'd leave it to fate, call in on a busy saturday morning, and get my hair cut if they just happened to have a spare appointment (unlikely). Yup, they had a cancellation... so the long blonde hair has gone, and I now have a funky new hair doo, chin length at the front, and very short and messy at the back. Still blonde. </p> <p>MBF had ALL day to comment on it yesterday, but alas not a squeak. I don't think he even bothered to look at me yesterday. sigh. I bet if I ran through the office in my undies he wouldn't even look up! Don't think he's here today. Either that, or he's late. Looks like it's going to be a long slow day for me!</p> <p>I had over 20 people comment on my hair yesterday, saying how good it looked. Does that mean it looked utterly crap before?!?! I do NOT look like posh spice. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/11/new_doo~2960421/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/11/new_doo~2960421/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/07/useless_graduate~2940579/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-09-07:/2007/09/07/useless_graduate~2940579/Fri, 07 Sep 2007 14:29:45 +0200 <p>Insanely bored again today. I WAS having fun pulling a machine apart, but got stuck and now have to wait until some brute force can help me! I suppose I could hit it with a hammer, but I don't wanna end up breaking something.</p> <p>I think I need a new career, but with a mortgage to pay, I can't afford to take a pay cut. Salary aside, I haven't even got the faintest clue what I'd do. In theory I could really enjoy engineering, but with OTT health and safety, meaning I almost have to sign a tissue out of a box before I sneeze into it, the whole thing has become more tedious than fun. I can't even walk into a lab to get a vernier without having to put the steel toe cap boots on! </p> <p>It's not just health and safety; i have to note down the time I go to the canteen to eat my sandwich, and the time I come back, the time I arrive, the time I leave. Next they'll want me to note down all toilet breaks. </p> <p>If it wasn't for MBF being in this office (sigh), then I'd be bashing my head against the wall by now. Oh, actually, I think I'd have to get a risk assessment done on the wall before I did that, then order relevant protective equipment. </p> <p>Hmmm, might go back to this machine and give it another go. At least I get paid £6k more than the technician guy, even if he does know how to put this machine back together far better than me! I really don't know why they pay us graduates SO much money, and him so little, when he's a really useful person! In fact, I don't know why the government bothers sending all these kids to uni, when half of them would be much more suited to apprenticeships! I mean, if you're not capable of getting 3 Cs at A Level, then you certainly shouldn't be going to university. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/07/useless_graduate~2940579/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/07/useless_graduate~2940579/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/06/lack_of_respect~2933393/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-09-06:/2007/09/06/lack_of_respect~2933393/Thu, 06 Sep 2007 10:15:15 +0200 <p>I was reading an article at the weekend about a girl who was forced to lead a muslim life after her mother married a devout muslim. The poor girl, having spent the first 9 years of her life as a catholic, had to run away aged 16 to stop her being forced into an arranged marriage!</p> <p>It makes me very angry that the muslim religion doesn't treat women as equals. If anything, a woman is far more important than a man, because she's the one who keeps the population going by creating and carrying a child for 9 months! I think that deserves respect.</p> <p>The above example shows that those who are old enough to have their own opinion would not choose to lead a secluded muslim life, so forcing children to become muslim from birth is cruelty, as they are brainwashed into knowing no better, and fear the repercussion if they dare to defy the rules.</p> <p>Not that christians are any better, as they still follow a book that is nothing but fiction, but if i was FORCED to follow a religion, I'd rather be christian than muslim!</p> <p>Just because I'm athiest doesn't make me a bad person. I'm perfectly capable of learning what's right and wrong, making my own decisions based on my judgement and morals, and if I do make mistakes, I learn from them.</p> <p>ps - MBF spoke to me yesterday. He asked me how I was coping without the chocolate machine (it's broken - someone punched it), and I turned in to a nervous babbling wreck! The secretary said this morning she thinks he's seriously weird. He IS weird. I really wish I knew why I find him so irresistable!! It's just not normal!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/06/lack_of_respect~2933393/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/06/lack_of_respect~2933393/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/03/can_you_speed_up_time~2916731/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-09-03:/2007/09/03/can_you_speed_up_time~2916731/Mon, 03 Sep 2007 14:01:39 +0200 <p>I'm not sure why I do my job. I've been at work a whole 6 hours so far, and done very little! We're not talking minimum wage here by the way, but if my boss doesn't give me work to do, then there's not alot I can do. I have the choice of asking for work and spending the rest of the day doing something mind numbingly mundane, or pretending to do work and sitting up very straight so no one can see what I'm doing.</p> <p>MBF is looking adorable today. He's going to be in the office all week :-) </p> <p>My boss (SAD) is a nice enough guy (despite the constant sniffing), but a lousy boss. He tells me to do things that I haven't been trained to do, I do them to the best of my ability, asking others how, then he comes back and moans it's not enough. well DUH! He could try showing me in the first place rather than expecting me to be psychic!</p> <p>Anyone know any good web pages that LOOK like work, but are fun?! </p> <p>I am praying (in the non religious sense) for a good project and something challenging to do! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/03/can_you_speed_up_time~2916731/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/09/03/can_you_speed_up_time~2916731/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/08/30/insatiable_curiosity~2895048/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-08-30:/2007/08/30/insatiable_curiosity~2895048/Thu, 30 Aug 2007 13:19:23 +0200 <p>I have an insatiable urge for random knowledge which is enough to drive the sanest of people barmy! My brain seems to be programmed to pick out things that seem somewhat peculiar, then find out why.</p> <p>Since he started work here a few months ago, MBF has worn a bomber jacket, right the way through summer, even on the few days that were humid and sticky. If he wears that all summer, what on earth does he wear in winter?! I emailed him to ask!! I really can't believe I just did that, and he probably thinks I'm even more of a nutter now, but I just want to know the answer otherwise it's going to bug me for ages!!</p> <p>I also noticed that in countries where they drive on the right, motorcyclists raise their hand to greet each other when passing in opposite directions. They can't do this in the UK whilst driving on the left, as raising your hand nearest the centre of the road to wave would mean releasing the throttle, so instead they all nod at each other.</p> <p>ps - i'm feeling better today. OH no longer being moody, so my negativity and self destruction mood has ended.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/08/30/insatiable_curiosity~2895048/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/08/30/insatiable_curiosity~2895048/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/08/28/living_a_worthless_existance~2883900/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-08-28:/2007/08/28/living_a_worthless_existance~2883900/Tue, 28 Aug 2007 14:08:35 +0200 <p>I actually wrote this Sunday evening, but given that I'm not convinced my boyfriend isn't monitoring my computer at home, I never log into my blog from my home PC!</p> <p>Sunday, 7pm I wrote:</p> <p>He's in a mood again. I don't know why. He started having a go at me over dinner, implying that I drink to much. FFS! I've already given up smoking for him, and I've even stopped having friends and going out because it usually leaves him in a mood.</p> <p>What's happened to me? When did I become so alone and so afraid of having fun on my own?When did I become such a disgustingly horrible person? What's wrong with me? I 've tried my best. I cook him meals, do most the cleaning, sort out all the bills, organise the shopping, give him cuddles and attention all the time, and don't even complain that 99.9% of the time it's only him that comes during sex (!). I have tried my very best, and even after all that, I'm still a worthless piece of shit. I don't think I can do any more. OK, maybe I could be a little bit more tidy, but no one's perfect. I must be missing the point here. Someone who does so much for their boyfriend and still can't please him must be a dreadful person. There must be something wrong with me.</p> <p>Am I arrogant? Do I just presume people like me, but in reality they just regard me as a vague human existance? I mean, I wonder how many people are actually thinking about me now? Nonw I guess... All bar my parents and maybe my brother, I very much doubt any one would miss me that much if I just disappeared. </p> <p>I must therefore conclude that I'm somewhat a failure in life. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/08/28/living_a_worthless_existance~2883900/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/08/28/living_a_worthless_existance~2883900/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/08/24/my_very_first_curry~2861248/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-08-24:/2007/08/24/my_very_first_curry~2861248/Fri, 24 Aug 2007 09:39:14 +0200 <p>Hangover.</p> <p>Head Hurts.</p> <p>Ouch.</p> <p>Red wine didn't used to give me such a bad headache!!</p> <p>I've been sitting at my desk for a whole 85 minutes now, and after a cup of strong black (sugarless) coffee, and a cup of fruity tea, I'm still feeling like shite! </p> <p>On the plus side, I am feeling an overwhelming sense of smugness, as for the first time in my life, I cooked a curry from scratch, rather than using one of those jar things you buy in a supermarket! It was slightly hotter than anticipated (I'm a cowardly wuss who could not bring herself to pre-taste the chillies), but SO much better than any jar sauce thingy. Thank you Jamie Oliver!! (and thank you indian staff in Co-op who helped me locate wierdo spices!).</p> <p>MBF is sitting in the office, although I am no longer irritated by his persistant throat clearing. He has the sexiest voice when he speaks; I wonder if he has a 2nd job working on a sex phone line?! Like those adverts you find in the back of girly magazines! Grrrrrrrrrr. I daren't email him again, as he's blatently not interested in my office flirty banter. I wonder how much of my day I spend having imaginary conversations with him in my head!? This has GOT to stop!! Why can't I get this dorky physics geek out of my head! ew! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/08/24/my_very_first_curry~2861248/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/08/24/my_very_first_curry~2861248/#commentshttp://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/08/23/talk_to_frank~2857317/tag:skyesantana.blog.co.uk,2007-08-23:/2007/08/23/talk_to_frank~2857317/Thu, 23 Aug 2007 15:20:48 +0200 <p>I come across as such a bitch, as I am in a very happy relationship with a lovely guy whose only fault is working too hard, and a minor addiction to computers (which I'm working on). Yet here I am, obsessing about some wierdo physics geek in my office. I blame boredom, as if I had something the slightest bit interesting to do, I wouldn't give MBF the time of day!!</p> <p>Anyone know that advert by Talk to Frank, warning kids about drugs use?! well, he kinda looks a bit like that guy from the advert, whose line is "puker, are you?". See, NOT sexy! He has adorable floppy blonde hair, which he spends most the day obsessively combing, and when I walk past his desk, he is mostly looking at stuff online, so I'm not quite sure what he actually does to earn his salary, which is no doubt at least twice what I earn, if not 3 times!</p> <p>SAD is sat right behind me. Sniiiiiiiiiiiif. Sniff sniff sniff. Sniiiiiiiiiiiiif. ARG! I spot earplugs on my desk... dare I shove them up his nostrils?! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/08/23/talk_to_frank~2857317/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://skyesantana.blog.co.uk/2007/08/23/talk_to_frank~2857317/#comments